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8:23pm in K7B211,Kolej Ungku Omar,UKM. Already been abt 4 months here. When i first know i can in uni i super happy coz with the result of mine i din put much hope in it. Chemical Technology is the course i'm taking. i dono wat tis course actually abt but when i get to understand tat it had connection with the course i am actually interested in. FEEL GRATEFUL n THANKFUL^^tats wat i feel the vy time..

Now, at the moment i really feel tat what am i doin here? uni life is not wat i thought it should be...
wat can i do to improve myself??? to be better? wat UR purpose in me???pls tell me....plspls... wat am i going to do??? such question i ask myself many times dy but i cant get an answer......i think that my life is a waste from child until..... i don wan to be like tat...... i wish to learn many things but.....
Many of my frien was vy worried n stress abt the comin exam but i din felt tat way...maybe abit la..

Friends??? my best frien where r u??? it was like i am disappearing...every one goin their own way dy...new frien, new place....they face lots of challenge in their life, life seem vy difficult....
Wat about me?? Life still seems ok...no big challenge coming....I am waiting for u Challenge...Where U??? my life juz like calm sea...bored...unproductive....how am i goin to do UR work with me like this...

I still feel empty in my soul although i know i have U forever...how??wat this means???
My spiritual mates...when can i meet u??? be my guide???

I know n understand clearly that i should be THANKFUL everyday..make every moment count..but in real life wat am i thinkin???