complicated!!!

first time writing this..no where to express,complicated feeling=.=
weird n boring today. wan to meet frien n buy things bt dono hw to go??
alone at home PJ.. goin to go bac to home town tmr! after 2months in sg.
hope to meet my family,frien n my church..miss much=>
my LORD...wan to be more close to you bt juz cant be...
pls GIVE me strength!!
really need ur present Jesus
dono hw my future will be...scared,lost n worry..wat uni i'm goin to??haiz!!!!!
my little bro like to play...haiz dono hw his study will be..worry abt him,coz i'm nt wif him
my grandpa drink everyday..hw abt his health??
my great grandma health get worst bt she din knew Jesus...hate Him i think, coz????
my 2months in sg, all my relative treat me vy well...vy sayang me le..i'm most blessed...feel God grace is upon me..really thankful BUT they haven receive salvation...really need a lot of prayer...
my feeling still vy complicated..no word can express...cham lo???
still nt feeling better to write it down on this blog...haha=)
ONLY GOD KNOW ................